Be Still

I am amazed at how quickly the end of October is approaching.  Time sure flies when you are having fun!  When I was a child, the days seemed to last forever; there was not a thought of time.  I find that my life is flashing before my eyes, ever so quickly.  If only time would slow down, just a bit.  I know that this concept will never happen, so I am the one that must slow down…

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Today, Be Still…  Remember to breathe in the crisp Fall air and make as many unforgettable memories as possible, for memories truly last forever.

Love Yourself…Embrace Yourself…Just Be You…

Roda

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Rainy Day Reflection

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It is a dreary and rainy Saturday morning… My eyes are still hazy and my voice is not quite ready to speak. I am surrounded by the warm covers, relishing in the silence, while listening to the raindrops tap, tap, tap on the skylights. For me, rain is silence. It is cleansing…a purifier…it delivers peace and clarity. It relaxes every part of my being…

It is during times like these, that I find myself reflecting. My mind wanders to past memories and experiences. I ask myself if it is even necessary to journey back in time, in my head. Is it healthy? I am moving forward and not in that direction, so is it even worth while? Is there anything left for me to discover there?

As the pace of the rain picks up, I find my thoughts visiting my family.  Thoughts of my mother, who walked out of my life years ago and my twin brother that followed the same path. Regardless of my sadness, I wish them well. I try not to return to these times. I find there’s nothing new to discover from these memories. I have visited them hundreds of times, looking for answers, only to find sorrow.   My mind drifts to my Father, remembering what an amazing man he was and that his life ended too quickly… I welcome the tears from my Dad, allowing them to heal and cleanse my heart that misses him so.

During these quiet moments, my mind wanders back to these days. It is comforting to know when I visit, I now feel peace. Contentment. Although silent tears run down my cheeks, I choose to not question why. A relationship takes two. I would never want someone in my life that didn’t wholeheartedly embrace being there. I release and let go…

Once again, I will close the door on these memories, although it never appears to remain locked. I will let the rain cleanse my thoughts and wash them away. I will wipe my tears… I am thankful for rainy days. They clear my head and ground me. These days purify me and allow me to breath deeply, focusing on blessings and forgiveness.

I am thankful for the pitter-patter, knowing it will return, cleansing my soul once again…

Love Yourself…Embrace Yourself…Just Be You…

Roda

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