My Soul Mate…

Two years ago today, I married my best friend…my soul mate.

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We met over 10 years ago and our magical connection ignited with the music of the Indigo Girls and bearded irises…from there, it is history.

This photo is my favorite, out of all of our wedding photos.  We are together, laughing, and celebrating our magical day, that was almost 10 years in the making.

 I am thankful for each and every moment I spend with this beautiful soul…

Happy Anniversary, Wifey!

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Love Yourself…Embrace Yourself…Just Be You…

Roda

*This song sparked our connection many years ago.  Funny how a simple song can still open the flood gates, to the heart and soul.

“The Power of Two – The Indigo Girls”

Now the parking lot is empty
Everyone’s gone someplace
I pick you up and in the trunk I’ve packed
A cooler and a 2-day suitcase
Cause there’s a place we like to drive
Way out in the country
Five miles out of the city limit we’re singing
And your hand’s upon my knee

So we’re okay
We’re fine
Baby I’m here to stop your crying

Chase all the ghosts from your head
I’m stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
We’ll look at them together then we’ll take them apart
Adding up the total of a love that’s true
Multiply life by the power of two

You know the things that I am afraid of
I’m not afraid to tell
And if we ever leave a legacy
It’s that we loved each other well
‘Cause I’ve seen the shadows of so many people
Trying on the treasures of youth
But a road that fancy and fast ends
Ends in a fatal crash
And I’m glad we got off
To tell you the truth

‘Cause we’re okay
We’re fine
Baby I’m here to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts from your head
I’m stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
We’ll look at them together then we’ll take them apart
Adding up the total of a love that’s true
Multiply life by the power of two

All the shiny little trinkets of temptation
(Make new friends)
Something new instead of something old
(But keep the old)
All you gotta do is scratch beneath the surface
(But remember what is gold)
And it’s fools gold
(What is gold)
Fools gold
(What is gold)
Fools gold

Now we’re talking about a difficult thing
And your eyes are getting wet
I took us for better and I took us for worse
Don’t you ever forget it
Now the steel bars between me and a promise
Suddenly bend with ease
The closer I’m bound in love to you
The closer I am to free

So we’re okay
We’re fine
Baby I’m here to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts from your head
I’m stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
We’ll look at them together then we’ll take them apart
Adding up the total of a love that’s true
Multiply life by the power of two

 

The Magical Thread… Fate

I spent the majority of my life creating to do lists that were completely unrealistic. I was planning my life, months in advance, always trying to get ahead.   For some reason, I felt that if I completed everything on my color coded list, I could rest… I would be able to give myself permission for some much-needed ME time.  I contemplate these times and have to chuckle to myself. Who was I to believe that I was in control? Why was I so naïve to think that life could be finished?  I was a perfectionist and truly my own worst enemy. I was losing at my own game, digging myself into a hole that left me feeling unaccomplished and exhausted.

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I realized that my job would never be done, regardless of the hours I spent trying. At the same time, I came to the acceptance that the house would not stay perfectly clean, the gardens would not be weed free and an artistic meal would not be on the table, 7 days a week.  I learned that the loved ones I assumed would be permanent fixtures in my life, would walk away.  I learned this because I lived it…    I had created unrealistic expectations for myself, for most of my life, trying to always please others…trying to make others happy, while I sat feeling completely alone.  I was unable to keep up with ME anymore.  I had to let go. I had to learn to trust in fate…

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I turned 40 on 11-11-11 and this was a year of awakening for me.   I learned to trust in the big picture…I learned to embrace fate! There was a plan for me, regardless of my efforts.  During this time, I welcomed the unknown journey.  By doing so, I found peace within.  I allowed the universe to guide me.  I listened and trusted my intuition. I learned to BE STILL…   I no longer questioned.  It was during this year that I began to LIVE…

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I have made more personal growth than one could imagine, during this magical time in my life.  Although the old ME can still resurface at times, she never stays for long.   I am living my dream each and every day, open to new and exciting adventures!  I have made connections with individuals I never would have thought imaginable.   The Universe patiently waited for me to listen…to trust…to be completely open…to LIVE.

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I don’t believe in coincidences.  Every experience and individual in my life led me to the next.  A magical thread connects life’s moments through time.  Beautiful souls have entered my life, with no explanation.  There is an immediate and deep connection, regardless of distance or time.  A connection far more powerful than just a coincidence and one that can only be delivered by fate.  I no longer question these connections and trust in fate’s magical thread.

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I also trust in ME!  When my intuition speaks, I listen…

“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be…”

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Love Yourself…Embrace Yourself…Just Be You…

Roda