Winter has always been a challenging time for me. Over the last few snowman seasons, I have worked diligently to embrace the cold winds, the wall of snow and lack of GREEN. I have dedicated this season as a time for rest, emotionally and physically. I am proud of myself, for this year I have been especially successful embracing the gifts of these frigid months. Mother Nature has blessed us with a sunny Winter, which has helped break up the “snow globe” type days that have left me feeling a bit trapped, in the past.
January challenged my positive thinking about Winter, for it was an extra difficult month emotionally. Saying “good-night” to my special friend, Velvet, was one of the most difficult moments of my life. There is a void in my heart and an emptiness in the barn that has made an already challenging season extra troublesome.
For the past week, I have felt pulled to escape, for just a few days. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life! But, I feel a bit tired and I am so ready for Spring to spread her wings! I have friends that live in amazing places, all over the globe, yet I never grant myself permission to take a few days, for myself, to recharge. When I allow myself to dream about these adventures, the Mommy guilt, farm guilt, Wifey guilt (all the guilt) sets in. Ironically, the only person that makes me feel guilty is ME. Wifey is always extremely encouraging and is truly my rock. The kids are kind and loving, wanting me to always follow my heart. The critters…well, let’s be honest, as long as they are fed, they are happy. So who is my roadblock? ME!
Two days ago, I decided to take a risk. I decided to put myself first. I went online and booked a round trip airline ticket for ME. I am going to visit a very special soul that has filled a void in my life, that I never thought would/could be filled. I am so very thankful and extremely excited! Two weeks from today, I will get to say “thank you” to this person, in person! I can hardly wait! So, be warned…you never know when I might show up at your front door!
Take the time for self-care… You will be a stronger and healthier person for it!
Love Yourself…Embrace Yourself…Just Be You…