One of Those Days…

For those of you who have been consistently following my ramblings, you might recall me mentioning having a little health “hiccup” over the past 6 weeks. I’ve been trying to avoid surgery, but unfortunately, it was inevitable.  Last Friday, I had my little OR visit and I’ve been trying to be a good little patient and follow the doctor’s orders.

Well, let’s just say, I don’t sit well. I’m happiest when I am outside with the animals or digging in Mother Earth.

If I can’t be outside, I am in the kitchen cooking or baking some amazing goodness.  Now, once again, for those of you who read my daily ramblings, you might remember that I don’t have a kitchen right now. We’re doing a full renovation and our kitchen is not completely functional.  With everything going on at home, 3 teenagers, and the farm, I am so very thankful for this little blogging adventure. It has occupied my thoughts and creativity for the past six weeks and for this, I am thankful.

Here is a little kitchen photo update:

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The majority of the cabinets have been installed. 
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Our desk area is moving along nicely.

 

Like I said, for the most part, over the past 5 days, I have been a good patient. Unfortunately, in my situation, it is difficult not to be good, for Wifey is a physician.  Plus, she can read me like a book and I am a horrible liar.  Regardless of the busy time of year on the farm and the kids’ schedules, I have tried to behave myself! The kids have been an amazing help and Wifey has spent her time, before work and after, keeping up with the farm chores. It is this type of situation that always makes me face “The Guilt Monster”!

I remind myself that now is the time for self-care. But, I have to admit, it is very difficult to not let in guilt.  For example… I feel guilty that I am missing the kids’ events. I feel guilty that I’m not helping with the farm. Then, I remind myself that guilt is only hurting me.  I then continue to adjust my thinking and focus on the positive. This too shall pass…

Last night, I thought I was ready to take a walk out to the barn.  I could not take it anymore and I needed to just say “hello” to everyone. It had been 5 days since I had stepped foot in the barn! The baby ducks were calling and I wanted to peek in on Skunk, our Bantam Cochin, who is sitting on 14 eggs that should begin hatching as early as Friday!!

Unfortunently, I realized very quickly that I was not ready.  It did not take long for that clammy/crawly feeling to take over my body.  While trying to help with easy duckling tasks, one escaped.  Following this, I dumped a 3 gallon waterer all over myself and the barn floor. Needless to say, I was quickly sent back to the house to shower!  I think I was making Wifey’s job more difficult than it needed to be.

At this point, I was feeling a bit defeated! So, to make myself feel better, I thought I would have a little spa time with my new organic chlorophyll mask from Cocokind. (Watch for an upcoming blog, discussing the amazing Cocokind products!)

Grumpy Farmer Roda

During my “selfcare” spa time, I came to the conclusion that I had been spending the day playing the role of Elphaba, from the musical Wicked, and trying a bit too hard to “Defy Gravity“.  Thank goodness today is a new day for practicing self care!  Now for one last thought…

“I’ve heard it said the people come into our lives,

for a reason,

bringing something we must learn. 

And we are led to those who help us most to grow,

if we let them

and we help them in return.” 

`Stephen Schwartz, Wicked the Musical

As Always,

Love Yourself…Embrace Yourself…Just Be You…

Roda

10 thoughts on “One of Those Days…

  1. Awhhh Roda, it is tough to sit back and watch others do what needs to be done especially if you’re accustom being part of it. Thankfully, you are abstaining to gain full strength again and not just being lazy lol. So please get your rest and I’m sure you’ll be back to your former self just better. 🙂

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  2. Give in to the healing- don’t push it! You have once chance to heal right- and avoid setbacks by overdoing. I’m like you and found it hard to sit after a major surgery, but after “overdoing” a bit and regretting it, learned to just accept it would take however long it needed to. Feel good.

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